2013 October- November.
I did not expect it, it happened so quickly, yet the desire for me to let go of him overwhelmed me. It was so vivid. I had to do it, I knew I had to tell him sooner or later.
I started seeing what was missing in our relationship- he never made me special, never told me I was beautiful, or that I meant something more to him. Compliments became rare. I felt like a frikin grandma. What happened to the spark?
We got too comfortable with each other, and in the end, we took each other for granted. I started thinking for myself, and how I felt that we both needed to be apart because we didn’t know how to love ourselves as individuals.
It was always me depending on him to feel a sense of security. I wanted to feel wanted, and it just gave me an excuse to avoid being independent. I know letting go isn’t easy. But the love just faded. It’s harsh and mean, but I hope only the best for him, I hope he finds someone who can make him happy. It would make me happy too.
graduated high school
smoked a cigarette.
ridden every ride at an amusement park.
collected something really stupid.
watched four movies in one night.
gone long periods of time without sleep. lied to someone.
failed a class.
been in a car accident.
been in a tornado.
done hard drugs.
watched someone die.
been to a funeral.
run a marathon.
cried yourself to sleep. spent over $200 in one day. flown on a plane.
written a 10 page letter.
lost someone you love had a best friend.
been to jail.
dangerously close to being in jail.
skipped school. got in trouble for something you didn’t do.
stolen books from the library.
gone to a different country.
dropped out of school.
been in a mental hospital.
watched all of the “harry potter” movies. had an online diary.
fired a gun.
gambled in a casino.
had a yard sale.
had a lemonade stand
actually made money at the lemonade stand
been in a school play.
taken a lie detector test.
swam with dolphins.
gone to sea world.
voted for someone on a reality tv show. written poetry.
read more than 20 books a yeargone to sea world.
gone to europe.
used a coloring book over age 12.
had surgery.(for braces!)
taken a taxi.
seen the washington monument.
had more than 5 im’s/online conversations going at once.
had a drug or alcohol problem.
been in a fist fight.
suffered any form of abuse.
had a hamster.
pet a wild animal.
used a credit card.
gone surfing in california.
done “spirit day” at school.
dyed your hair.
gotten a tattoo.
had something pierced. gotten straight a’s.
been on the honor roll.
known someone with hiv or aids.
taken pictures with a webcam. started a fire
gotten caught having/going to a party while parents were gone.
There is so much more to life,
then what we think. Life has no limits.
Look around, Michael. We’re in Uzbekistan. No Percy, no Division, no rules.
—It’s not that simple.
Because you make it complicated.
love his cover <3
I’ve missed tumblr.
I’ve missed the inspiration it gives me. Why did I ever stop tumbling?